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08:41 am
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confessions
the frustration i feel.
a past i thought i left behind.
words don't seem to explain.
my feelings towards you.
you want in.
you are frustrated.
i wish you could see.
you are already in.
in further than most make make it.
be patient.
try to understand.
it has been a lifetime.
since i've been here.
please remember.
you are already in.
i may not show it.
i'm working on that.
everyday i want to touch you.
kiss you.
hold your hand.
you make me smile.
laugh.
i am scared.
don't confuse that with mistrust.
i trust you with my life.
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07:26 pm
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maybe later
somedays i feel i travel down a road that ends
but no matter where i go
no matter if the sun shines
or rain falls
in my mind you hide
in my heart there is a piece
and in my soul we intertwine
as the world turns our lives are separate
our journey is a lonely one
so we joke
and we laugh
we trudge on along this rough road
as futher apart we drift
and as the clouds part
we say to ourselves
maybe later...
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12:04 pm
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sunrise
i should've walked away
but i've been told i never live in the moment
i only contiplate the next morning
so i did it
i lived in the moment
and i smiled when he kissed me
and i laughed when he laughed
i got lost when he touched me
for one night
i lived in the moment
i let myself get carried away as the sun rised
and i left that morning
and i said goodbye to the girl i once was
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11:22 am
[Link] | i would rather search my entire life for that special "someone", and only have someone next to me for parts of my life, then spend my entire life with that "someone" who is not so special. i would rather sleep alone every night of my life, then settle for who is next to me. this is just me, not you, not anyone else. i do believe we are set on a path in life. and sometimes we make turns that takes us to a dead end. but fear not, we can always turn around and pick a different direction.
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12:58 pm
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FYI
I AM COLLEGE EDUCATED....I KNOW HOW TO SPELL HONEY....HUNNI!
Current Mood:  mischievous
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11:16 am
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Coffee
all i want is a good cup of coffee and good conversation.....oh yeah...and a big fat hug!
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12:45 pm
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UPDATE: Too much to say and not so much with patience...so this will be short and sweet.
1) My last day at Outback is Saturday. Yay hoorah! I'll be done training at Mitchell's Fishmarket on Tuesday...which is awsome 'cause servers there are banking huge!
2) Bah Humbug to Xmas...I am poor!
3) Red and I started seeing eachother again. Basically, he said that he made a mistake and misses me a lot. We both agreed that we don't want to go to how things were the last few months of the relationship, so we are just taking things as they come.
4)Semester is over, I got A's in my education classes. I PASSED BIO!!!! YAY ME!!!!
5) Duke is awsome. He is huge!! He is six months old and at least 50lbs. Hahaha...
All and all, shit seems to be going alright.
Hope everyone has a Merry Christmas!!! NOT "HAPPY HOLIDAYS"
Current Mood:  content
Current Music: Damn Christmas Music!
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03:18 pm
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Yay me!
I go in for orientation for Mitchells Fishmarket on Tuesday, then I will start training. It will be nice to get out of Outback. The hotel has been crazy. The cutover will happen tomorrow. So things will be a little hairy for a little bit, but that's okay. Some other shit has gone down, but that's neither here nor there. In fact it really has nothing to do with me, but has since caused some drama. But that's it is.
School is nearing the end of the semester, which is awsome because I hate my Bio class with that of everything I am. Yes, it really sux that bad! Anywho...have a good weekend all!
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09:37 am
[Link] | So I didn't so well in the Texas Hold'em tournament last night, but I placed 2nd in the game we got going at Squirrel's.
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05:35 pm
[Link] | Bring it on Bitches!
Current Mood:  excited
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01:36 pm
[Link] | Off to Chrissy's for the weekend....
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09:11 am
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So.........
Red called me on Monday to ask me what time softball was on Tuesday, then he ended up stopping by. Then ended up going home and coming back. THEN, he came over for dinner on Wednesday. He came over at like 6:30p and didn't leave until 10pm. Then I asked him if he would come by the house last night to feed Duke dinner. He text me at 1pm and asked if he could go to the house now. So he hung out at my house all day and was still there when I got home from work at 9pm. He finally left at 11pm. He told me he misses me. So I'm not sure what's going on. And I'll just leave it at that for right now.
Current Mood:  confused
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07:39 am
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Revelation
So I am at work yesterday and in the kitchen joking around with the kitchen guys and one of the guys asks me if I have a boyfriend. He knows Red and I broke up recently. I said no, nor do I want one. ( Keep in mind we are speaking in spanish, making this that much odder). He said that I am happier when I do not have one. I barely talk to this guy other that hi how are you kinda thing. So do have someone that barely knows me point out that in the the last month or so I am happier acting than before is crazy. And such a revelation.
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07:30 am
[Link] | http://www.myspace.com/dragonfly_away
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01:52 pm
[Link] | I feel like death on a cracker.....and no one to take care of me. :(
Current Mood:  sick
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08:53 pm
[Link] | I haven't update about Red, probably because I haven't been in the mood. We broke up a few weekends ago, his choice, not mine. But it's all good. He has sent me mixed signals, but now he's out of the state for a month at some job. It's good money and it's only for a month. I was really upset at first, but then I had to ask myself why, and yeah, I don't know. "I get by with a little help from my friends.." I do have good friends.
School is okay, I love my education classes but my BIO sux ass! In fact I should be studying for my exam tomorrow, but it's sooo boring.
All I want to do is HAVE FUN! and the GOOD kinda fun. ya know what I'm sayin'....hahaha
see ya all later
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07:19 am
[Link] | Single again.....not in the mood to update more than that.
HOWEVER.....please do not tell me it will be fine...it's his loss....you can do better...or any of that other crap. I do realize that it is all true, but I'm not in the mood to hear it.
Current Mood:  sad
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08:42 am
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So let's see if astrology is right.......
Daily Overview for September 17, 2005
Provided by Astrology.com Year In General
Shaky couples will recover new energy. Your impulsiveness may play tricks on you, though, so try to preserve your self-control. There's a risk of serious problems of communication with your family if you don't show tolerance and understanding; don't try to have the last word in everything, and learn how to listen. Success will be strictly proportional to your efforts, on the condition that you remain cautious. The help of your best friends will prove precious. Consider making investments, but privilege safe bets.
Pay close attention to the first line...? I'll let you know if it's right after tonight.
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09:01 am
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PS.
It does help when there's someone who makes your day just a little bit better. Someone who makes you smile and blush just a bit.......
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08:48 am
[Link] | Duke and I are getting along fabulously. He's such a cutie! He still hasn't had any accidents in the house. And last night we went from 11:30p-3:30a before he needed to go outside. So he's improving. He also didn't cry when I put him in his crate to go to bed.
So the wedding is tomorrow, so hopefully all will be cleared up by then. I'm not really sure what will happen. But it needs to just go one way or another, because I NEED to get LAID! hahaha
Have a good weekend all.
Current Mood: content
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